M.S DHONI was a smashing hit, what is he thinking of now? Shubarna Mukherji Shu finds out as she talks to the super talented Sushant Singh Rajput.
Excerpts from their conversation-
Often having met you it comes across as I have just met two personalities – one who is basking in this life that his passion and talent have allowed him… Other restless and waiting for more. How do you maintain the battle lines between these two sides of you?
Trust me everyday even I feel the swinging of the pendulum from being in control to not wanting to be in control. I am generally and genuinely excited all the time. If I was not successful people might think that there is something wrong with me. But since the results are in my favour, it’s natural to think that I’m enjoying my success. Having said that, I’m nothing but this contradiction. A part of me sometimes gets seduced by everything that’s good happening to me and wants to hold on to it whereas the other part knows that the only way I can enjoy the success is by letting go everything I have to explore the unknowns in order to be excited.
So it all boils down to your confession about how you are someone who gets bored or dissatisfied easy. Though I don’t understand how this profession has still kept your interest
I get bored when I know how exactly things will turn out and then I’ve to wait for it to happen which is what adds to the boredom. That’s why I consider the closest synonym of happiness and subsequently success is ‘excitement’ and it comes from constantly trying new things, asking better questions, being in the constant state of not-knowing and with complete disregard of the outcomes. Embrace unpredictability and become myopic for the sake of excitement and your passion is my motto.
What happens next?
What happens next? It is unpredictable and that’s the beauty of the future. If I am absolutely certain already what and how I’m gonna do then what’s the point of doing it?
Recently we came across the statement ‘Too good too soon’…. We believe that it defines your journey thus far… Does it bother you that now you don’t get the room to make mistakes
I want to make mistakes and I want to make bigger mistakes. Mistakes are the indicators that you are truly living and going about your life in an interesting way. If you by your hard work or whatever get recognition and the riches and the rest of your life you spend in fear, fervently working to hold on to it, you might as well let it go and start afresh . You will get to know what living your life actually feels like.
No camps, no celebrity friends… A lone crusader! Having come from outside the film industry, I wonder what gives you the sense of security here that leaves camps unimportant for you.
It’s a simple battle or a game if you allow me to call it and the game is same for all of us here. It’s not some arbitary philosophy, it is the truth and we all know but somehow fool ourselves to not think about it.
Everyone, you, I and the one reading this will have to let go of everything relationships, recognition, money and other belongings in the end of the game. And science and other disciplines can’t guarantee what’s gonna happen post that. But you still ok with the later and willing to take a chance with whatever your hypothetical beliefs suggest. Why can’t we live our lives like that .We act like mortals in all that we fear and like immortals in all that we desire… We must live immediately, we don’t have forever. Knowing how all is transient, takes away the need for security.
It’s often been said about you that you are too correct and proper, which is why a lot of people are spreading rumors contrary to your public image. But then again, it’s not humanly possible to be correct and proper all the time. In moment of lapses, who witnesses the other side of yours…
I detest words like proper and perfection. What exactly are they I don’t know. People incessantly work in their self interest and then project otherwise to everyone and sometimes to themselves too! That’s the play. As I said that I have a better game that I’m playing which is far more interesting and hence I don’t care about this one.
Currently what’s it that you are craving for…
I’m learning how to play a guitar , I’m learning how to sketch, I’m writing a kind of book that doesn’t say anything particular and I am very excited for the films I’ve chosen to do in 2017.
What about having someone in your life… Is there no need or no space?
We will see with time. We should not work for these things. They should happen or not happen on their own.
You had once told me that you are bad at maintaining friendships and relationships, are you getting better with time or worse?
I like meeting new people and having genuine conversations but at the same time I want to be left alone at many times . Because of this, probably I said what I said but yes it’s true I’ve handful of friends and relationships who understand and it’s mutual and sufficient.
Though you are born with the perfect genes let’s talk a little about how you ensure the right footing physically in the film industry. Especially since here it’s so important how you look and how you project yourself in this industry… Do say what you would advice others…
I would say, firstly be comfortable with unpredictability, that’s the most important course of action when you want to sign up for this life. Second, the more you learn the less you would feel you know but that’s fine. I would also suggest, you find the ‘why’ of your dreams and money, recognition will follow.
Lastly, if you manage to pull off the first three don’t take yourself very seriously and don’t forget to have fun when you are at it.
Lastly the coming year what are the things you lookin forward to and what do you want should fade out.
Hypocrisy and ego should fade out and innocence , curiosity and a hell lot of excitement should take their place